I want this feeling in my stomach to go away. I want to stop feeling this way. I want the weight on my heart to be lifted.

It hurts so much.

Why did we get given the ability to feel envy? It's crushing.

I can resolve some of it. But there are some things that if you arent born with you simply will never have.

Why does my brain focus on one of those things.

I hate it all. I hate myself. I hate my body. I hate my brain. I hate everything about me. I wish I was more, I wish I was better, I wish I was smarter, I wish I was more like you. I wish I was you.

I'd give it all.

Fuck.

I wish I had you. You make me feel better.